Monthly Archives: June 2016

Calm before storm

By calm I mean my mid week weekend that I got off from work to get me ready for the hopefully sunny and absolutely insane 4th of July weekend on the nj shore.  

I’ve had time to write the last assignments of my summer course so now all I have to do is wait and transfer the credit. I still would not say I like history but I do appreciate it more which is a huge change in the short 6 weeks. 

I went on a solo ingress outing which was successful if you ask me. And now I’m waiting in line to shop the huge church sale my town has every year. This is normally a day when I buy a new wardrobe but due to the soon approaching study abroad thing I’m going to try not to get things. (Cheaper and less space consuming.) I am looking for craft supplies and Kacki shorts. But what ever I get I’ll be sure to post about. 

where to begin

I am going to start by apologizing for last weeks post I was out with friends and wrote it in like two seconds on my phone in a car going to a sleep over that didn’t end up happening. I am doing a million things and trying not to make excesses but I know this blog is not my top priority. The women who inspired me to write and do this blog has just today announced that she needs to change things up in order for the cite to keep going at all. I am coming due for the renewal of my domain name and start to have doubts. I have doubts about everything recently because there is no way to do everything, leaving is hard and starting anew is even harder but the middle aims to make it all worth it.

I know that this week I am posting a forum post I wrote for my almost over online class. This history class has made me write more in the last few weeks than I have been able to write for myself in a long time and that is scary. I do not have the desire to create this but I am too scared to give up. I recently had my wisdom teeth pulled and it’s given me far too much time to sit at home and think and watch netflix but mostly think. I have gotten so used to having no free time, getting home from work completely exhausted and having one day a week off to do all the chores I have put off this blog post normally being a chore among the rest.


I am in no place to make a decision about going forward right now and no matter what really do want to keep this site going but I have to figure out what with and who for. I post so much of my life here which is a great documentation for myself but it opens my life up to anyone who is willing to take the time to skim the site over.


Equality has held different definitions over the course of history. A current example of equality not being achieved for all people is based on sexual orientation. (Bathroom laws, trans right LBGTQ issues, hate crimes Etc.) Just last summer was it legalized for same sex marriage. Though there are still huge issues due to the lack of equality a few hundred years ago the word equality only related to one group of people in the US, the white land owning male. A discussion of equal rights could not have been held considering women did not have the right to vote and neither did blacks. To view people as dependents or property from a political view is only alright now as a tax break (marriage or children.)

Mercy Otis Warren is an example against the theory of minorities being unable to independently forming conclusions. This is shown in the political writing of the pamphlet she wrote and published under a pseudonym. A smart educated women who was well versed in  her upbringing and theory that wrote and published proves that not all of these people who were considered dependent to those who owned their livelihood were unable to form their own educated conclusions. The circumstances were far more related to background knowledge.


I saw a super cool concert with my forever family friend Mary and there was a pride booth which was amazing, I got so many cool stickers for my computer, the best of which says make america gay again.


This week a very close friend lost a family member and I found myself in need to express my emotions in writing.

I am sharing a poem.


Black and white

Black and White;
The abundance of all color and the lack of any color
The beginnings and the ends.
When a couple gets married a brides dress is white
The lack of color.
The blank slate for the couple embarking into the next phase of life.
When a family is grieving they dress in black,
The funeral is filled with dark colors
The black summing up all else.
The loss of a family member,
Taking the dynamic and pulling out the carpet
Everything that had been before now shifted at the least
And fully knocked over or broken for others
Community brought together for the best of times and the worst of times
The conditions so different
The people so similar
Cheers to fresh starts
And grievances to starting over.


So now that there has been the kick off to summer weekend memorial day behind me and job hours starting to pick up I should set my summer goals.

I want to pass my summer class, Early US History, not that it interests me but definitely something I have to get through.

Meet up with people as often as you can. I have to work as much as I can but I should take time off and hang out with the people I care about.

If I can’t meet up at least stay in contact.

Play some of the PC games that you keep buying and never even download (40% of my steam is un-played and that is super depressing. )

Get crafty, I have some projects in mind but they are doing me no good in there.

INGRESS- I’m thinking about starting a spin off site for this because I love the app and would find pleasure in a photo based recap blog so if I still love the app after the summer class I will start that up.

Be less stubborn and work on the improvements you set back for new years resolutions.

If you want to see what I was working on for 2016, I know I needed the refresher.

This summer may not be the best summer of my life but it can be a very good summer.

Stay hot and I will post again next week