I have been feeding myself for a few weeks now with a full kitchen at my disposal. but let’s be honest I have never enjoyed cooking. When I eat alone food is nothing more than a necessity and may as well be saw dust. I love food when it is a social even. Dinner with friends at a pub or diner, eating around a nice family style table with the family. Even in the school dining hall I pretty much do not eat alone. I have been working 5-10 hour shifts pretty much every day,(When I get paid it will be glorious) meaning my life consists of waking up making breakfast going to work and coming home with very little variation. to me an exciting day is going to the library to get some DVDs. With that in mind by the time I get home on a full work day to an empty house I shower before or after insanity workout. (If before that means it’s not happening that day) and want to pass out so i sit on the couch and do exactly that. I don’t want to spend another second standing to cook not ever canned soup so I rarely eat dinner.
If we are what we eat I am pizza. Well to be politically correct I am water pizza and eggs. Those three items are what keeps me alive. I know that is a scary thought and like where are you getting the needed protein and vitamins and such. To be honest I don’t know. If you ask me what I eat as a vegetarian at school I look at you like you asked me to lift a million pound rock. I have no idea how to answer that question. I know I must eat something and it’s not always the same but how should I know what that magical stuff that keeps me alive is? I am not hiding anything from you I really do not remember it. And I feel alright healthy and all so I do not really worry. It is my right to eat poorly if I want to and I don’t want to be reminded how bad it is for me, I know but it is what it is for the time being.
DO NOT FLIP OUT ON ME. i have started counting my calories. Not really for weight loss but because the apps these days are so easy to use. I type in what I eat it tells me the nutricional value and can guide me away from bad stuff or at least tell me my trends. I hope to avoid gaining weight over the summer because working around endless amounts of fried food is bad enough and the temptation plus availability can make it hard to resist a full on chow down. The app will guilt me out of over eating and should be good for me. If it seems dumb or unhelpful after a few weeks I will delete it but who knows.
Now that that rant is over (Thank you for reading three paragraphs about how I do not eat well when left to my own devices) I want to work toward improving myself this summer. Reading more was a new years resolution that I have started to fall short on. I have been good about not using my phone at work but home is another story. I don’t think that is a problem it’s not being used to detract me when people are around but still. I know I can and did live with out a smart phone. In the fall I want to barely use the thing (I deleted sims for the calorie counter,(and because it wouldn’t update)) I’ll sleep more when my mom is around to tell me to. I need to write lists or something to push me to get things done like household chores. I want to write for fun because I have not had fun writing in a while.
In the reading category I want to get through the hunger games trilogy again, Falling into Place, read the next few Maze Runner books, 50 shades of grey, and kite runner. If there are other books you think are must read please recommend them to me.
I think that is it for the moment I may have to go back to twice a week posts for the summer to get me to do some writing so one can be a rant and one can be creativity. idk if that will happen wait and see is the best I can say about that.